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Interview questions courtesy of monalisaovrdryv

1. How has your current situation with "him and her" changed your relationship with "him"? Do you think it's still working?

I think we're kind of stronger because when she stopped being willing to take chances with me, he was still there. He didn't write me a note and then split town after six years of friendship. And, as for whether or not its working, yea I'd say so. But my opinion on that varies, because in the middle of the night sometimes I'm not really sure if we're not just fooling ourselves into thinking we can salvage a healthy long term relationship from the rubble of who we are now. I think that it does work because he's a strong and caring person.

2. (I ask everyone this) Top 5 CD's in your player NOW.

For shame! I have no CD player! I listen to Radio Bongbadia a lot (thats the streaming radio station from my boyfriends house). While we were in Savannah we did buy a Joydrop demo and a Clem Snide demo though. :P

3. What is your dream job? Do you think you are near obtaining it?

To own my own wildly successful and totally stress-free coffee shop. Obtaining that? HAH! Banks won't even give me a checking account, let alone a small business loan. :P

4. Have you lived in Seattle all your life? Name a place you dream of living and why.

Dude I've lived everywhere. When I was a kid I travelled a lot with my dad to places like Africa, Asia, and Europe. But, I was born in England, grew up in California, and stopped for about 10 months in Alaska before finding my way to Seattle. And honestly, this is the place I've dreamed of living. Its a young city with lots of amazing intracacies and secrets.

5. It's a typical saturday night. You and I are hanging out. What do we do?

The usual. Smoke pot, play video games, and knit. :)


Speaking of knitting, I would have been able to finish nerdgoddess's hat last night, had I remembered my trusty yarn needle. Instead, I decreased down to the final 16 over at Bongbadia while watching sammay and fadingbluestar play SSX. I'll finish it later today, I think.

And then after that, I'm going to start a scarf. I don't have any of the ones I knitted before (hahah, I've only knitted two), they were lost in the divorce. The scarf I want to knit is going to be green and grey variegated, but I'll have to varigate it myself and in the shape of a snake! Woo!
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Everything sucks today. I didn't sleep well. The first thing I heard at work was that my coworker and his friend got drunk and stole a canoe in West Seattle and that his friend washed ashore dead on Alki and nobody can find said coworker. And the great follow up to that was that my boss' husband is going to have to go through chemotherapy again. I hate mornings that start with finding out about how bad things always happen to good people.

I'm sick still. I'm in a foul mood because of it. I've had a headache for two days that even my roommates T3 can't kill.

My rent is going up -- not a lot, but still. Suck.

My computer died and Michael hasn't had time to come over and take a gander at it, and knowing the rate of speed the two of us operate at, it'll be a while before either of us makes time to sit down and look at it.

Money is tight, as per usual.

I saw a gorgeous orange pair of leather mary janes, which sucks because I've been trying not to wear animal, but mmmmmmmf. Orange mary janes! With two buckles! *orgasm* I don't have enough shoes right now.

Jason being missing doesn't feel real. All morning at work I expected that he'd show up on his bike with another story of being hit by a car on his way to work and another grotesque set of pictures to show me from his EMT training text book. I had to look in the paper to confirm that all this was really happening. I knew yesterday that he'd gotten drunk and stolen a canoe the night before, and that he'd called his girlfriend and given her quite a scare. When nobody heard from them at all yesterday, we thought they'd been sleeping it off. We didn't know that the body had already washed up on the beach with the canoe's tow rope around his neck and that police were trying to identify him.


I don't think I've known anybody who's died before. I had an uncle who died, but I was young and I didn't go to the funeral.

An on a completely unrelated note, I hate the noises that Elyssa Steamer makes on THUG when she falls down.

Now: self medication.
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Dear World

Dear World,

Savannah is one of the most incredibly beautiful places on earth. And my boyfriend is so fucking hot in his new hat that I want to hump him everytime I see him wear it. *drool*

I am returning to Seattle promptly, where I will in all likeliness be promoted to manager of my store with a big raise.

Love, Louise
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I cried on the airplane as we were leaving Denver. It took me an entire layover to realize how much I miss my mother and little brother. It was so nice to see them getting along so well with Michael. My family is mostly affable, but they really liked him.

I'm sorry if I didn't get to see you while I was in California -- I promise to make a more extensive trip down there than just an evening. I did see missloo12 and ezly_corrupted and digitalretina and dk. And it was lovely and wonderful and ciderful.

And now I'm going to socialize with Michael's family. His grandparents are a saucy lot, and his great grandmother is absolutely ADORABLE.

I miss Seattle, but strangely enough, I miss Lodi more.
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In California

We've been in California for a couple days now. Uneventful flight, first stop Lodi, CA. We were at my mom's pad for less than an hour before there was Tony Hawk and pot smoking. She took us next door to her friends house for a smoke, and then we played video games with my little brother. He is much much better at THPS than I'll ever be, little fucker. *fume* Mom's other next door neighbor has an 8 week old miniature daschund with the same birthday as the daschund my family had. He's the cutest thing in the entire world.

We hopped a Greyhound bus to San Jose at 9am and walked from the bus stop on Post to dk's place on 7th. We have to head back to Sacramento tomorrow morning, pretty early. I was thinking we should do like, a night at a bar tonight. So everybody can show and there can be much imbibing now that we're all 21 (I mean now that I'm finally legal). So yea, 206.234.3148. I have Michelle, Shorty, Mark, Tim, and Elena's number in my cell -- but I don't have your number Loo!

Food now.
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We talked. I became hysterical. I tried to pull my hair out. I punched a wall. I nearly punched him. I feel like such an idiot for a multitude of reasons, but I am so emotionally and physically drained that I can't even be bothered to write about them all. I also have to write about my therapist, because she's wonderful.

But instead, I'm going to go cry myself to sleep with my bestest pals HBO & THC.
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AND DID I MENTION THAT I HAVE A DENTIST APPOINTMENT TOMORROW AFTER WORK? BECAUSE I DO. And I have the most horrific feeling that its going to end in oral surgery. Most of my dental appointments do. I have some serious gingivitis and a tiny mouth full of big decaying teeth. And I haven't even had my wisdom teeth removed. They're still wedged back there fucking the rest of my mouth up.

I swear that this is the last post I'm going to make tonight, private, filtered, or otherwise.
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The longer I am in relationships, the more I find that the greeting card and romantic confection industry does nothing for the kind of person in my specific situations. Where's the Hallmark card that says, "Thank you for loving me even though I'm a psycho at 530a?"
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Vacation: sammay and I will be vacating the state of Washington in favor of Lodi, CA and my mom's place until the 31st and Atlanta and Savannah, GA and his parent's houses until the 5th of February. I can't imagine a vacation with two such contrasting legs. We'll eat crepes and have breakfast burritos for dinner and get stoned in California. I want to go down to the bay for a day and a night to see old friends (dk, ezly_corrupted, perpetualfog, missloo12 !!). And I don't really know what we'll end up doing in Georgia but it won't be anything like my mother's house. Michael's grandparents will be involved, and both his parents and their respective significant others. I need to be careful to make sure that I don't really still have a warrant out for my arrest and that it won't be a problem to travel in the state.

Money: I asked my Dad to loan me $1000, repayable at a rate of $150/month. I thought it would be like squeezing blood from a stone, because my father is notoriously flaky and also psychotic, but five minutes later I had $500 pound sterling accepted into Michael's paypal account. I'm using about half of it to pay for this vacation, and I'm going to combine the other half with money I already have saved, and the money I will save until I get my tax return, and the tax return itself to purchase a new computer. The one I have now is a janky old piece of crap that I am lucky to have, because without it I wouldn't be connected at all, but which really doesn't suffice. Especially when everybody around me, like Becky and Blake are getting nice lovely looking machines. And even though they both got Powerbooks, which are incredibly sexy, they are also incredibly expensive and I don't think I want to be saving for that long.

Dr. Anspaugh: John Aylward came into the Aloha Tully's when I was pulling a shift there about a week and a half ago. It was so wonderful and fantastic and I barely could believe it. I know it doesn't hold a candle to nialavender meeting Howard Dean, and Al Gore, and Martin Sheen. But it was my own little brush with celebrity and it gave me quite a thrill.

The Divorce: No not the band -- the horrible traumatic personal event. I'm going through one, or I've gone through it since it happened before Thanksgiving which was actually a life time ago. And just because I'm not talking about it doesn't mean I'm not thinking about it. I will say that it was much harder at first than it is now. And that my feelings are mostly ambivalent at this point, because things were over far before November. I keep her letter pinned on my wall, as a reminder of mistakes not to repeat.

Fast Food: We're going to get some right now so I need to go. Michael says so.
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